The seconds tick by. Relentless. Monotonous. Laborious.
The pendulum swings lazily, but it doesn’t stop.
The spring must unwind.
The man paces restlessly, his steps keeping pace with the ticks. The rhythm quickly settles into a dreary tempo: Tick tock tick tock; Left right left right.
Legs grow weary. Muscles strain. Dull ache turns to throbbing pain. Brain cells scream in protest. Bones clamor for rest. Eyelids water silently.
The body welcomes nauseous motion sickness. Tendons give way.
Collapse.
The head drops back.
Pupils dilate.
Eyelids close.
Limbs go limp.
Breathing slows.
The blood slows in the veins.
The day’s over… finally!
The brain recharges, readying for another day.There’s lot more pacing in store.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Saturday, February 02, 2008
FOUR, AND COUNTING
Feb 2, 2004
Three kids woke up at the unfamiliar house of a friend, took turns at the shower, drank a cup of tea and grabbed a sandwich at the stall down the road, and headed off on foot to "join work". It was an unknown city. It was a new adventure. It was scary. It was exciting. Hands and knees trembled, beads of perspiration fused, forming a stream that charted its own course down their backs. In their mind, dreams danced the tango to the beat a racing heart. But each masked his inner fear with a joke, a laugh and inane conversation. Small talk masked jittery nerves. It also felt "cool". Student life had ended. Welcome to the corporate world.
Upon arriving at their destination, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed (at least each believed himself to be in that frame of mind), they were told by the receptionist that the Admin Dept was on leave. Welcome to the corporate world, indeed! They each now had a whole day to do their own thing. But each of them pushed wanton thought out of ntheir head, and congregated on a common objective: find a house. The day was spent exploring unknow streets and locales in the company of a betel-chewing, stale-tobacco-smelling chappie dressed in a stained shirt and patched trousers, sporting a Rs 6,000 gold-plated watch.
Feb 3, 2004
The early-morning routine was the same as the previous day. This time, however, the hallowed Admin Depty was working. After being asked to fill up a mound of forms, and then introduced to people in the department we were to join. Hellos-and-Hi's exchanged, we were again left to our own devices. And again, the latter-part of the day was spent in the exalted company of the same gent as the previous day. He looked like he'd not gone home at all, let alone showered, or brushed his teeth. On the plus side, we rejected some 4 examples of architectural accidents.
Feb 2, 2008
I woke up at 10:30 am: familiar bed, familiar room. Yelled for tea. Snoozed. Came to life when my man-Friday brought a steaming cup of brown liquid for my consumption. Pushed a little canine off my chest, getting a glare and a growl for my troubles. Switched on the telly, and gaped at the moving images. Cursed the cable guy for switching the frequency for 'Star World'. Grumbled when the door bell rang and the caller asked that my car be moved, as construction work had to begin above the ground it covered. Checked my phone for messages. Found one from a colleague seeking permission to take the day off due to ill-health. Answered in the affirmative. Fielded a call from some unknown voice enquiring if I wished to arm myself with a credit card. Request Denied. Showered. Drove to work along familiar roads, noticing a hoarding that had sprung up overnight, featuring a scantily-clad siren directing the passer-by's attention to a new brand of perfume. Yelled obscenities at some hapless pedestrian who'd decided he'd tempt fate by racing wheeled-traffic with the muscles belonging to his hind limbs. Steered into a large gate emblazoned with the name and logo of my employer. Handed the keys to the inhouse valet. Strung a dog-tag with my name and designation around my neck, and headed to my assigned desk: one I've occupied for the better part of 4 years. Answer e-mails from bosses, delete unwanted notifications and inter-departmental memos, call up Admin to ask if reimbursements have been credited. Sign a leave application from a member of my team.
I'm now a four-year old veteran at this place. The place is, in spirit, the same one I walked to four years ago: familiar faces, familiar sounds, familiar problems and solutions.
I've now been here four years. It's different: new faces, new responsibilities, new problems promising new headaches and obstacles.
The old and the new merge.
It's a normal day at work. Boringly routine and run-of-the-mill. Nothing extraordinary. Worryingly mundane.
Surprisingly exciting.
Three kids woke up at the unfamiliar house of a friend, took turns at the shower, drank a cup of tea and grabbed a sandwich at the stall down the road, and headed off on foot to "join work". It was an unknown city. It was a new adventure. It was scary. It was exciting. Hands and knees trembled, beads of perspiration fused, forming a stream that charted its own course down their backs. In their mind, dreams danced the tango to the beat a racing heart. But each masked his inner fear with a joke, a laugh and inane conversation. Small talk masked jittery nerves. It also felt "cool". Student life had ended. Welcome to the corporate world.
Upon arriving at their destination, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed (at least each believed himself to be in that frame of mind), they were told by the receptionist that the Admin Dept was on leave. Welcome to the corporate world, indeed! They each now had a whole day to do their own thing. But each of them pushed wanton thought out of ntheir head, and congregated on a common objective: find a house. The day was spent exploring unknow streets and locales in the company of a betel-chewing, stale-tobacco-smelling chappie dressed in a stained shirt and patched trousers, sporting a Rs 6,000 gold-plated watch.
Feb 3, 2004
The early-morning routine was the same as the previous day. This time, however, the hallowed Admin Depty was working. After being asked to fill up a mound of forms, and then introduced to people in the department we were to join. Hellos-and-Hi's exchanged, we were again left to our own devices. And again, the latter-part of the day was spent in the exalted company of the same gent as the previous day. He looked like he'd not gone home at all, let alone showered, or brushed his teeth. On the plus side, we rejected some 4 examples of architectural accidents.
Feb 2, 2008
I woke up at 10:30 am: familiar bed, familiar room. Yelled for tea. Snoozed. Came to life when my man-Friday brought a steaming cup of brown liquid for my consumption. Pushed a little canine off my chest, getting a glare and a growl for my troubles. Switched on the telly, and gaped at the moving images. Cursed the cable guy for switching the frequency for 'Star World'. Grumbled when the door bell rang and the caller asked that my car be moved, as construction work had to begin above the ground it covered. Checked my phone for messages. Found one from a colleague seeking permission to take the day off due to ill-health. Answered in the affirmative. Fielded a call from some unknown voice enquiring if I wished to arm myself with a credit card. Request Denied. Showered. Drove to work along familiar roads, noticing a hoarding that had sprung up overnight, featuring a scantily-clad siren directing the passer-by's attention to a new brand of perfume. Yelled obscenities at some hapless pedestrian who'd decided he'd tempt fate by racing wheeled-traffic with the muscles belonging to his hind limbs. Steered into a large gate emblazoned with the name and logo of my employer. Handed the keys to the inhouse valet. Strung a dog-tag with my name and designation around my neck, and headed to my assigned desk: one I've occupied for the better part of 4 years. Answer e-mails from bosses, delete unwanted notifications and inter-departmental memos, call up Admin to ask if reimbursements have been credited. Sign a leave application from a member of my team.
I'm now a four-year old veteran at this place. The place is, in spirit, the same one I walked to four years ago: familiar faces, familiar sounds, familiar problems and solutions.
I've now been here four years. It's different: new faces, new responsibilities, new problems promising new headaches and obstacles.
The old and the new merge.
It's a normal day at work. Boringly routine and run-of-the-mill. Nothing extraordinary. Worryingly mundane.
Surprisingly exciting.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
FOOD FOR THOUGHT
So it was a colleague’s birthday, and after work, a group of us decided to head to a nearby watering hole, sit around a table and stuff our faces. Regular stuff. Nothing fancy. Down some moonshine, partake of some cheerful parley, cut a cake… What else was there to do?
Such trips are, I’ve learnt, a lesson in patience, debate, compromise, and eventually, making the most of the given situation.
It all started with a simple question, asked nonchalantly when the group assembled in a corner of the workplace, after the inbox had been cleaned out, desk lamps turned off, and workstations shutdown: “Where are we headed?”
It was a question that had to be asked, but one that opened Pandora’s box. For those four simple words strung along in an innocuous-sounding query, set the scene for a drama that only those chaps who sport long-flowing white beards and saffron robes can survive. I think this ability has largely to do with the diet of nuts and berries found along the remote slopes of the Himalayas that they dig into with gusto at the end of a long day spent day-dreaming of better times.
Returning to the Res Gestae: the question could only be answered by surmounting certain conditions. The first one we came across, was that the august premises in question be close enough to make it there before lights out – a vital criteria, considering the normal working day extends well into the night and past the witching hour. I mean, there is no point in pulling up at the door and being met with a stiff collared night watchman telling you that you could get a bite to eat if you don’t mind moseying on to the back door and fight off hordes of cats and dogs and rats and other of god’s blessed creatures, before putting your nose into one of the many black bags left there by the hard-working staff, containing items the sous-chef’s assistant’s assistant’s deputy himself couldn’t stomach, or the sommelier decided would lead to embarrassing and trying times, if presented to the bill-paying public. A quick survey found there were no less that twelve such establishments to choose from.
And as we dithered and bickered, trying to pick a common destination, the next factor reared its ugly head: The Economy.
One thing we all agreed upon, thank the lord, was that the management shouldn’t be too greedy. To put it succinctly, it must allow the mug that visits, the satisfaction of a full stomach, well-pickled gills and still leave enough in the pocket so he isn’t forced to turn to the blessed parent to make rent for the rest of the month. And here it was, that the next problem arose: one individual did not possess the funds required for a spot chosen by another. And establishments that fell within the budgetary abilities of a majority of the gang, were alas, frowned upon by some as dens that don’t deserve to be granted the honor of ushering in the next year in a blighter’s life.
As options were tossed back and forth, one thing led to another, and we found ourselves discussing something entirely different: Décor.
While some favored the shout-all-you-want, sit-where-you-will kind of place, others preferred to put on the nosebag in locales frequented by gentry sporting somber colors, accompanied by ladies with gowns screaming allegiance to stables set up by beings considered the salt & pepper of present-day fashion, all frowning upon a strand of hair that defies the clips and insists on hanging about doing its own thing, or a spine that decides that “upright” is not the most comfortable posture after all.
As we held palaver on the utopian setting of choice, the debate meandered into a new territory: Cuisine.
The menu dictated by the proprietor had to pamper the palate and digestive system of the entire assembly… well, a majority of the populace, at least. So shouts for Chinese were drowned out by people arguing that Agi-no-moto sent their innards into spasms, while some others alleged that the worm-like appearance of the noodles made for a fortnight of nightmares that eventually sent people off the prescribed diet. These people offered an alternative in the form of Italian cuisine – and in a not-so-nice way, were told off on grounds that the only difference between Spaghetti and Noodles was the spelling. Mexican dishes were too spicy, Indian food too mundane, American victuals like Burgers & Fries were too uninspiring, the Thais used too much sugar or coconut-oil, depending on the preparation, the Japs believed in under-cooking their fare… the objections would have made a hunger artist proud.
And the dialogue would have gone on, till some wise soul decided to glance at the watch adorning his wrist and saw fit to point out that the last hour-and-a-half spent on infighting and thought-up-on-the-spur-of-the-moment arguments blocking other constructive suggestions had made the whole agenda of the evening moot, as all the places under discussion had downed shutters, and the ants were setting about cleaning up the floors with renewed energy, in the absence of human intervention.
With that crisis looming large and rendering all other argument and thought irrelevant and immaterial, and empty stomachs raising their voice in disapproval, demanding immediate attention, we settled on a place that might still serve up something that might still make the evening salvageable. That is to say, one person threw out a name at random, three others agreed to the suggestion with a “Right-o!” and the rest of the group, for want of any better suggestion, fell in line.
So we trooped off to the joint, stood around for a table to be vacated and upon the subject of our wait becoming available, and suitably wiped of the victuals it had been fed by its prior occupants, slid in. We ordered. Or rather, we asked what was available at the late hour, agreed to the paltry 3 preparations the waiter rattled off (apparently, no one else had wanted them, and the kitchen staff had decided the raw materials for these had to be exhausted, and never purchased again), and made attempts to keep the spirits alive with aimless banter and forced humor.
All in all, a birthday celebration no one, especially the star of the evening, would forget in a hurry, despite repeated sessions of hypnosis and strong doses of doctor-prescribed morphine.
Such trips are, I’ve learnt, a lesson in patience, debate, compromise, and eventually, making the most of the given situation.
It all started with a simple question, asked nonchalantly when the group assembled in a corner of the workplace, after the inbox had been cleaned out, desk lamps turned off, and workstations shutdown: “Where are we headed?”
It was a question that had to be asked, but one that opened Pandora’s box. For those four simple words strung along in an innocuous-sounding query, set the scene for a drama that only those chaps who sport long-flowing white beards and saffron robes can survive. I think this ability has largely to do with the diet of nuts and berries found along the remote slopes of the Himalayas that they dig into with gusto at the end of a long day spent day-dreaming of better times.
Returning to the Res Gestae: the question could only be answered by surmounting certain conditions. The first one we came across, was that the august premises in question be close enough to make it there before lights out – a vital criteria, considering the normal working day extends well into the night and past the witching hour. I mean, there is no point in pulling up at the door and being met with a stiff collared night watchman telling you that you could get a bite to eat if you don’t mind moseying on to the back door and fight off hordes of cats and dogs and rats and other of god’s blessed creatures, before putting your nose into one of the many black bags left there by the hard-working staff, containing items the sous-chef’s assistant’s assistant’s deputy himself couldn’t stomach, or the sommelier decided would lead to embarrassing and trying times, if presented to the bill-paying public. A quick survey found there were no less that twelve such establishments to choose from.
And as we dithered and bickered, trying to pick a common destination, the next factor reared its ugly head: The Economy.
One thing we all agreed upon, thank the lord, was that the management shouldn’t be too greedy. To put it succinctly, it must allow the mug that visits, the satisfaction of a full stomach, well-pickled gills and still leave enough in the pocket so he isn’t forced to turn to the blessed parent to make rent for the rest of the month. And here it was, that the next problem arose: one individual did not possess the funds required for a spot chosen by another. And establishments that fell within the budgetary abilities of a majority of the gang, were alas, frowned upon by some as dens that don’t deserve to be granted the honor of ushering in the next year in a blighter’s life.
As options were tossed back and forth, one thing led to another, and we found ourselves discussing something entirely different: Décor.
While some favored the shout-all-you-want, sit-where-you-will kind of place, others preferred to put on the nosebag in locales frequented by gentry sporting somber colors, accompanied by ladies with gowns screaming allegiance to stables set up by beings considered the salt & pepper of present-day fashion, all frowning upon a strand of hair that defies the clips and insists on hanging about doing its own thing, or a spine that decides that “upright” is not the most comfortable posture after all.
As we held palaver on the utopian setting of choice, the debate meandered into a new territory: Cuisine.
The menu dictated by the proprietor had to pamper the palate and digestive system of the entire assembly… well, a majority of the populace, at least. So shouts for Chinese were drowned out by people arguing that Agi-no-moto sent their innards into spasms, while some others alleged that the worm-like appearance of the noodles made for a fortnight of nightmares that eventually sent people off the prescribed diet. These people offered an alternative in the form of Italian cuisine – and in a not-so-nice way, were told off on grounds that the only difference between Spaghetti and Noodles was the spelling. Mexican dishes were too spicy, Indian food too mundane, American victuals like Burgers & Fries were too uninspiring, the Thais used too much sugar or coconut-oil, depending on the preparation, the Japs believed in under-cooking their fare… the objections would have made a hunger artist proud.
And the dialogue would have gone on, till some wise soul decided to glance at the watch adorning his wrist and saw fit to point out that the last hour-and-a-half spent on infighting and thought-up-on-the-spur-of-the-moment arguments blocking other constructive suggestions had made the whole agenda of the evening moot, as all the places under discussion had downed shutters, and the ants were setting about cleaning up the floors with renewed energy, in the absence of human intervention.
With that crisis looming large and rendering all other argument and thought irrelevant and immaterial, and empty stomachs raising their voice in disapproval, demanding immediate attention, we settled on a place that might still serve up something that might still make the evening salvageable. That is to say, one person threw out a name at random, three others agreed to the suggestion with a “Right-o!” and the rest of the group, for want of any better suggestion, fell in line.
So we trooped off to the joint, stood around for a table to be vacated and upon the subject of our wait becoming available, and suitably wiped of the victuals it had been fed by its prior occupants, slid in. We ordered. Or rather, we asked what was available at the late hour, agreed to the paltry 3 preparations the waiter rattled off (apparently, no one else had wanted them, and the kitchen staff had decided the raw materials for these had to be exhausted, and never purchased again), and made attempts to keep the spirits alive with aimless banter and forced humor.
All in all, a birthday celebration no one, especially the star of the evening, would forget in a hurry, despite repeated sessions of hypnosis and strong doses of doctor-prescribed morphine.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
WAIT... AND HOPE
One year, and nothing much has changed. The day still starts at the same time, work is unyielding as always, routines are etched in stone, goals and plans persevere… barring slight, inescapable modifications.
Ah, but there is one change: people, are different.
No, not that they are all more-or-less a year older. Not that they have changed in their nature to a significant, remarkable degree. It’s the whole “Once a thief…” syndrome at play.
Sidebar: Marginal changes are evident; expectedly so. Some habits have had more time to ingrain themselves in the veins. Some habits have faded. Some looks have changed. Hair has been dyed or streaked. Earrings have increased exponentially. Glasses have appeared, given way to contacts. Phones have changed. Diets too.
But these are just superficial morphs.
Irrelevant. Immaterial. Sustained!
Friends circles have changed. Some of the old ones have been weeded out –unintentionally, at times. Purely because some distances in geographies, tastes and ideologies have proven too large to bridge. Not impossible, just impractical, given current circumstances. Some have been pushed out with great effort, all for want of peace and quiet.
Some acquaintances have been upgraded. Some new inmates have put their uniforms and plates on newly emptied or newly built bunks. And cell doors have slammed shut. It’s now a question of whose name gets called the next time the doors swing open. Place your bets!
The heart has mourned those who’ve left. For some, it grieves still. The eyes have smiled at the immigrants, and left them to their devices, offering occasional pointers when solicited. Life has meandered around immovable events and circumstances. Water under the bridge -- precious fluid nonetheless. What’re a few tears among friends? What, indeed?
My cynicism rears its head yet again... undying, unrelenting, immortal and invincible. The hands of time may turn steadily; the sands of time may pour out effortlessly, on cue, much like clockwork; life may drain out of the very pores: one continuous ooze that shows no signs of clotting.
2008 looms ahead. Will it bring back all that’s lost? Will it bring forth new pleasures? Will it revive dying dreams? Will it heal old wounds? Or will it draw fresh blood and leave more scars?
The gut says: “Bosh, and nonsense!”
The heart cries: “Spare me!”
A tiny voice squeaks: “There’s always hope!”
The soul drowns them all out: “There’s one whole year to find out!”
Ah, but there is one change: people, are different.
No, not that they are all more-or-less a year older. Not that they have changed in their nature to a significant, remarkable degree. It’s the whole “Once a thief…” syndrome at play.
Sidebar: Marginal changes are evident; expectedly so. Some habits have had more time to ingrain themselves in the veins. Some habits have faded. Some looks have changed. Hair has been dyed or streaked. Earrings have increased exponentially. Glasses have appeared, given way to contacts. Phones have changed. Diets too.
But these are just superficial morphs.
Irrelevant. Immaterial. Sustained!
Friends circles have changed. Some of the old ones have been weeded out –unintentionally, at times. Purely because some distances in geographies, tastes and ideologies have proven too large to bridge. Not impossible, just impractical, given current circumstances. Some have been pushed out with great effort, all for want of peace and quiet.
Some acquaintances have been upgraded. Some new inmates have put their uniforms and plates on newly emptied or newly built bunks. And cell doors have slammed shut. It’s now a question of whose name gets called the next time the doors swing open. Place your bets!
The heart has mourned those who’ve left. For some, it grieves still. The eyes have smiled at the immigrants, and left them to their devices, offering occasional pointers when solicited. Life has meandered around immovable events and circumstances. Water under the bridge -- precious fluid nonetheless. What’re a few tears among friends? What, indeed?
My cynicism rears its head yet again... undying, unrelenting, immortal and invincible. The hands of time may turn steadily; the sands of time may pour out effortlessly, on cue, much like clockwork; life may drain out of the very pores: one continuous ooze that shows no signs of clotting.
2008 looms ahead. Will it bring back all that’s lost? Will it bring forth new pleasures? Will it revive dying dreams? Will it heal old wounds? Or will it draw fresh blood and leave more scars?
The gut says: “Bosh, and nonsense!”
The heart cries: “Spare me!”
A tiny voice squeaks: “There’s always hope!”
The soul drowns them all out: “There’s one whole year to find out!”
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